Showing posts from October, 2011

Output vs. Input

Hello? It is very quiet and still here tonight.  It feels as though there has been too much output with too little input.  There is a need for something fabulous to occur. *glitter*  Instead, it is becoming winter.  We turn inward. 
What will our frosty reflections bring about?  Can hot chocolate soothe a soul to release its secrets?  Everything I have told is too much, but it is not yet enough.

What if we all went silent?  What if we refused to tell our stories?  What if there were no stories to tell?  We would cease to communicate. We would stop being human. 
It would be so easy to fail to mark the passage of time with ceremony. We could pass from one day to the next unfettered.  Our sense of loss only comes in retrospect. Like looking out on an empty driveway after company has gone. We turn away.
How are we so alone yet all together? Can we accept what we are given? Everything I have told is too much, but it is not yet enough. 

(hat tip to Douglas Coupland, Microserfs, and the mind …

To Flow As Water Does

We are all going to die. Let me repeat that. We are all going to die. So get over it. Or at least do the best you can to get over it because you can't stop it from happening.

The problem is that as a culture we have grown to associate death with an end, with a loss, with grief, with pain. How would our relationship with death change if we could realign our perspective so that death is viewed simply a transition? Death is what is supposed to happen. It is natural. It is—depending on one's spiritual views—just another life event. If we talked about death more, would we be so scared of it?
There is a practice in psychology that involves addressing trauma by talking about it and by allowing the very feelings that one tries so hard to block out to be fully experienced. At first, the very idea of undergoing this process is terrifying and causes anxiety in a patient. A patient typically has spent great amounts of effort avoiding everything related to the trauma—sights, smells, sound…

Not Cool, Man... Not Cool

It is 2:42 a.m. I am awake because there is something wrong with my butt. I know exactly what is wrong; however, I do not yet know the extent. The problem—and I CAN'T BELIEVE I'm telling you this—is that I have a cyst.

I happen to sit down a lot. I sit down a lot because I'm tired a lot because I've had a whole boatload of other health problems. I spend a ridiculous amount of time on the computer, and that requires sitting down a lot. I sit in these weird smushed up, twisted up positions, which apparently isn't good for the skin back/down there. From all I can figure, I have traumatized the skin, which has led to the current situation. I also have a very shapely booty. Apparently, shapely booty-ism can be a contributing factor.

I am mortified
Also, I feel kind of crappy. Today was the third day of waking up feeling pukey and self-medicating with Pepto and Protonics. I think I might have a bit of a fever. My back hurts, and it's been hurting for so long that …

Rethink Your ROI—Addendum

After Chris Boyer read my blog post, he felt that I had mis-characterized his tweets to prove a point. He posted a comment to say exactly that (see below) and tweeted it. Never one to let sleeping dogs lie, I tweeted back that I took exception to use of the word mis-characterization as it implies intent—and frankly, I'm not stupid enough try to slander or prove wrong the Director of Digital Marketing & Communications for Inova Health System and a member of the Mayo Clinic Social Media Advisory Board. I am but a wee blogger and ePatient. My network and scope of influence is, to steal a term, 1G. Boyer's is 5G+. Boyer presented at the social media conference at the Mayo Clinic (#mayoragan) today about the exact topic that came under discussion during the aforementioned #hcsm chat—ROI. Apparently, the packed house ate it up, loved it, downloaded it, quoted it, and in the end, sang along to it because Boyer did a little ditty on the ukulele. I didn't get to see or hear an…

Rethink Your ROI

A week or two ago I got into a Twitter debate with Chris Boyer, Director of Digital Marketing & Communications for Inova Health System in Northern VA and member of the Mayo Clinic Social Media Advisory Board, over use of the phrase return on investment (ROI) in relation to healthcare. The debate occurred during the weekly healthcare social media chat (#hcsm) and started like this:

@chrisboyer Want to learn how easy it is to measure #hcsm ROI? I detail how@inovahealth is doing it on this Slideshare preso:

@chrisboyer Oh yes! #hcsm ROI has a direct effect on patients and business. They both work well together.

@chrisboyer It's great to know that others are also doing what's sensible for business - #hcsm ROI. Good stuff!

Really, I was okay up until then, but another TweetChatter chimed in.

@joltdude There really is two ROI's involved with healthcare.. the financial one, and the social/altruistic one. Both are important #hcsm

And Chris Boyer said thi…

Terrible Twos-day: Sinus Infection Edition

The Afternoon Napper has come down with the crud and apologizes for her blog absence. In lieu of the Napper's own words, please accept the following two blog entries from the blogosphere regarding sinus infections:

With props for the most accurate description of a sore throat ever to Carmel Lobello of death & taxes—"Without going into too many details, I have a sinus infection, which comes with a sore throat that makes me feel like I’m gulping wood splinters every time I swallow, a cough which has led me to pull a rib-muscle, and the kind of headache that makes you consider breaking your pinky toe with a hammer just to transfer the pain."

And one really angry guy who saw what patients would refer to as the doctor from hell—"For those who aren’t going to read, bottom line, I had a doctor who ignored her patient’s medical history and symptoms, berated me and treated me with such passive aggressive nonsense that I felt it necessary to write a 2,700 word blog…

Waesuck Wednesday: Breast Cancer Edition

October is Breast Cancer Awareness Month. That's great. Breast cancer sucks, and it is prevalent. According to the National Cancer Institute, "based on current rates, 12.2 percent of women born in the United States today will develop breast cancer at some time in their lives." The American Cancer Institute says, "Breast cancer is the most common cancer among women in the United States, other than skin cancer. It is the second leading cause of cancer death in women, after lung cancer."

Read that again—second leading cause. Do you have a clue when lung cancer awareness month is? Do you know what color ribbon to wear? "Lung cancer is one of the most common cancers. In 2007, lung cancer will account for approximately 15% of all cancer diagnoses and 28% of all cancer deaths. It is the second most diagnosed cancer in men and women (after prostate and breast, respectively), but it is the number one cause of death from cancer each year in both men and …

Terrible Twos-day: Twitter Edition

I've been onTwitter too much lately. It's the result of neuroticism on one hand and inefficiency on the other. I want to know what's happening even though it doesn't involve me. I'm afraid I'll miss something important that does or does not involve me. I'm sure there are better ways to cull the information, but I haven't learned them yet, so for now I'm simply compiling a great big list of links to visit later, which I'll probably never visit or will visit six months from now when they'll be irrelevant. It's hard work this keeping up and staying in touch.

And while Twitter is a new fangled type of great communicator, it is also an old fashioned time waster. Remember how once upon a time boredom prompted Googling of random words just to see what popped up? Now that same concept can be applied to the Twittersphere. Search for a random hashtag or key word and see what other people have to say about it. There's always humor to be found.…

Give What You Get

"If you're going to leave me, I'd rather you go ahead and do it now."

I was 24 when I told my then-boyfriend these words. Altogether, we had been a couple for nearly six years, having met through mutual friends, spent our college years together, then, after my graduation and subsequent move for a job five hours away, entered a year attempting a long-distance relationship that crumbled. There was a year apart. I moved for a different job, somehow managing to be five hours away from the old job and still five hours away from the guy. Nonetheless, we found ourselves back together in May 2004. We tried to overcome our past, but the fact of the matter was that while we had both changed, we had trouble recognizing that in each other, so it was no great surprise that by winter we were both looking for an easy way out. And then I got sick.

Really, I'd been sick for years, but things had finally come to a head when an incident at work convinced me that I had to get my high …